Kelly Rowland airs out her darkest secrets on “Dirty Laundry,” the second single off her upcoming album Talk a Good Game. The singer is her most vulnerable yet, opening up about pursuing a solo career after Destiny’s Child and watching Beyoncé’s career take off while she was feeling discouraged.

“When my sister was on stage, killin’ it like a motherfu**er/ I was enraged, feelin’ it like a motherfu**er/ Bird in a cage, you would never know what I was dealing with/ Went our separate ways, but I was happy she was killin’ it/ Bittersweet, she was up, I was down,” sings Kelly on the record, written and produced by her “Lights Out” tourmate The-Dream.

She also speaks candidly about a tumultuous relationship with an ex-boyfriend. “I was battered, he hit in a window like it was me until it shattered/ He pulled me out, he said, ‘Don’t nobody love you but me, not your mama, not your daddy, and especially not B.'”

Talk a Good Game arrives June 18 featuring Wiz Khalifa, Pharrell, Beyoncé, Michelle Williams, and more.

Listen to Kelly’s confessions below.