Lady Gaga is not able to do what she wants. Despite the title of her R. Kelly-assisted single, the pop superstar had to delay her latest video due to reasons beyond her control.

In a note to her fans posted on LittleMonsters.com, the 27-year-old singer opened up about the status of the video, which was expected to premiere in December.

“It is very devastating for someone like me, I devote every moment of my life to creating fantasies for you,” said a distraught Gaga.

She blamed her former business partners for distracting her from her art. “Those who have betrayed me gravely mismanaged my time and health and left me on my own to damage control any problems that ensued as a result,” she said.

While she didn’t address anyone by name, she may be referring to her former manager Troy Carter, who she parted ways with in November.

But she is ready to start over and fully execute her vision. “The next few months of ARTPOP will truly be its beginning,” continued Gaga. “Because those who did not care about ARTPOP‘s success are now gone, and the dreams I have been planning can now come to fruition.”

Gaga previously shared photos from the provocative Terry Richardson-directed clip co-starring R. Kelly. “It’s unlike any video I’ve ever done. Very Personal,” she tweeted.

The song, which appears on her chart-topping album ARTPOP, has already spawned two remixes featuring Rick Ross and Christina Aguilera.

Read her full letter below.

It is late because, just like with the Applause video unfortunately, I was given a week to plan and execute it. It is very devastating for someone like me, I devote every moment of my life to creating fantasies for you. All my my most successful videos were planned over a period of time when I was rested and my creativity was honored. Those who have betrayed me gravely mismanaged my time and health and left me on my own to damage control any problems that ensued as a result. Millions of dollars are not enough for some people. They want billions. Then they need trillions. I was not enough for some people. They wanted more. I am very grateful to the photographers and designers who have always stood by me to make sure my fans are never aware of the things that happen behind the scenes, but unfortunately after my surgery I was too sick, too tired, and too sad to control the damage on my own. My label was not aware that this was going on. The next few months of ARTPOP will truly be its beginning. Because those who did not care about ARTPOP’s success are now gone, and the dreams I have been planning can now come to fruition. Please forgive me that I did not foresee this coming, I never thought after all the years of hard work that those I called friends and partners would ever care so little at a time I needed them the most. Give me a chance to show you the meaning of seeing art all around you. Open your hearts to me again that I may show you the joy of us coming together through our talents, that we are stronger as a unit than when we are alone. Let me be for you the Goddess that I know I truly am, let me show you the visions that have been in my mind for two years. I love you. Forgive me monsters. Forgive me ARTPOP. You are my whole world.