August Alsina confronts his demons in the dark and deadly video for “FML” (Fuck My Life). The clip, which he directed with Payne Lindsey, opens with a bloody Pusha T witnessing himself being carried off in a stretcher. Investigators discover August hanging from a rope inside the house before we see what led to his suicide.

“I never thought that I would be here / I never thought I’d get this far,” he sings as he burns money and wears a hat that says “Death.”

The video ends with a hopeful message from August: “I’ve been where you are. Through the struggle and through the pain. It’s what makes us stronger than most. When there seems to be no way forward you have to make a way.”

He also gives out the number to the national suicide prevention lifeline.

On August 14, August will embark on his “Testimony Live” tour in Seattle.

Warning: The video below contains graphic content.