It’s Kendrick Lamar like you’ve never seen him before. While lying down on a couch, the “Swimming Pools” rapper opens up to Fuse in his most intimate interview yet. He recalls performing “Silent Night” in the third grade (and even sings some of it), shares his favorite cartoon character, and reveals the best Christmas gift he’s received.

He also remembers beating up a female bully who pulled on his ears in second grade. “I lifted her up and slammed her,” said K-Dot. “And I don’t hit girls. That was my last time doing that. I told my mama that I won’t do that again.”

Plus, he shares his biggest regret and crush on Brandy when he was seven. “I found this four-leaf clover and my wish was to meet Brandy for my birthday,” he said. “The wish never came true though.”