Kreayshawn is quickly learning how cruel the spotlight can be. Following the MTV Video Music Awards, the “Gucci Gucci” rapper’s Twitter account was hacked and underage nude photos of her were leaked online. It appears to be taking a tough toll on her, as she reveals to her fans via Tumblr.

“All I wanted to do is create and have a good time,” the Bay Area artist wrote in a blog entry entitled “I Am Mad.” “But, this is quickly forming into something I never would have signed up for from being accused of being racist to getting my pre-teen nudes leaked everywhere.”

Despite a lucrative deal with Columbia Records and nomination for Best New Artist at the VMAs, she still contemplates whether she is cut out for this industry. “I feel like this shit ain’t my cup of tea,” she vented. “Someone else want my job right about now? Im just gotta sip lean and disappear. THIS GAME IS FAKE AS ALL HELL!”

To add to her troubles, she was confronted by Rick Ross’ crew at Sunday’s awards after her controversial freestyle on Cosmic Kev’s “Come Up Show,” but she maintains that her lyrics (“You tryin’ to play me like a boss? You faker than Rick Ross”) were not a diss at the Teflon Don. “I’ve never, ever intentionally dissed anybody my whole career, and I don’t do that personally with friends either,” she told MTV News earlier.