Ja Rule asks “Is this my life?” on the reflective first single from his new album P.ain I.s L.ove 2. Produced by longtime collaborator 7 Aurelius, “Real Life Fantasy” addresses the former Murder Inc. rapper’s recent troubles.

“Get high, go to prison, and evade taxes/ This is not what I envisioned when I started rapping,” he confesses, adding, “If this was ’03, then I’da told ya you was crazy if you told me that is what it’d be/ I miss Vita, Caddie, Black Child, Charli/ I thought we was tighter than the Marley family.”

PIL2 and The Renaissance Project drop June 7, the day before Rule is scheduled to start serving his two-year jail sentence.